Thread:Dr0Shadow/@comment-1988716-20141106110347/@comment-1988716-20141119023514

YOU RAN AWAY FROM HOME?!?

After a lot of violence, hunger, isolation, hatred, and questionably sexual encounters, yes. I didn't just run away, either-- complete strangers on the internet bought me a plane ticket to America so I could live with my brother, who was okay with the whole deal. So I got an entire ocean away from home and I was only sixteen. It was the best moment of my life. Everything went downhill from there. America is a terrible place to live when you're poor. Before long I had psychos blackmailing me over reasons that were never all that clear. If I didn't get the fuck out of that house, I'd be dead right now. Or my brother and I would be out on the streets. Dad found out about it and gave a call, he had to call a lot of people to find out where I was hiding, and it took many calls to convince me to come home. I.. really didn't want to go back. I considered it to be suicide. But it happened. And life somehow got better. My family got better. I made sure we all got therapy, even if the therapists told my parents they thought I was making it all up. My family's still not perfect, but it's at least manageable now.



Your mind doing better?

I have flashbacks semi-regularly, intrusive thoughts every day, I don't often believe I'm a real person, and I have to consciously fight off the suicidal thoughts. It's very hard to sustain a basic friendship except for when I pretend I'm not real. I fear the future so much that I'm starting to hallucinate every night. I couldn't even stomach college, and I'm sleeping most of my work days away. And I can't cry anymore except under extreme circumstances.

Yet somehow I'm not doing that bad. I've got a pretty good grip on reality, and I like to think I'm very perceptive about my emotions. And people.. really like me wherever I go. Hell, I like me.

So. So kinda. My mind is kinda doing better. It's on its way.

Do you plan on using any Fears that have since only appeared in OGTRIB?

Maybe eventually. I wouldn't rule it out. I think some will definitely make a return in some form. I think.

What new Fears do you plan to interpret?

As many as I can. I just have to give it time. We're only halfway through the story. The Architect will be in there somewhere, in case people are wondering about that.

Any new ideas in that trilby- and blonde hair-clad head of yours?

Only for non-Fear-related stories. There'll be Charlie's Angels, an anthology. There'll also be Sonic the Hedgehog is Dead, an absurdist script.