Thread:LilPotato/@comment-1988716-20150111020659

Hunter, you can feel free to ignore this if you're not in the right state of mind for it. But at some point this is a conversation we're going to need to have. You and me. And taking it private wouldn't do any good. I want this to be a conversation where everyone can see the context for themselves.

(For the record, just so we're clear, I deleted your blog post last night because the comments were getting out of hand and plus you had rendered the post irrelevant anyway by clarifying you're not really leaving. Just so I'm transparent on that.)

You seem to have a lot of misconceptions, not just about our mythos but about our community. The misconceptions with the mythos are not exclusive to you, in fact you make more of an attempt to understand our mythos than I can really say a lot of others do. I have no problems with you as a writer of your age. You're doing fine, and I'm really glad to see you're writing a blog, that's all that matters in the end, that's all it takes to be in the Fear Mythos. So the mythos misconceptions aren't what I'm here to talk about.

You speak as if the Facebook group has done terrible things to you. I won't lie and say they've been saints, but I will give you, as thoroughly as I can, a complete list of reasons why people might be mad at you.

1) The Wiki front page thing, as you are aware of. Honestly I don't care that you made the edit, I'm glad you did, you reminded me to fix it. But you speak as if the front page was your magnum opus, which is the absolute wrong way to look at it. Put all that dedication and persistence in your stories, no one can fault you for your stories. No one, I won't allow it. But the front page is a general-mythos thing, it concerns more people than just you. So it has to be approached from a detached point of view, a point of view that is okay with having the entire page scrapped at a moment's notice. Y'know, the front page you designed? It only covered a section of our mythos, it excluded a lot of alliterator blogs, a lot of my blogs,  a lot of CuteWithoutThe's blogs, some of Omega's blogs, a lot of Writerer's, some of TheSomnambulist's, hell even some of LizardBite's. When your definition of the Fear Mythos excludes blogs written by all the people who started the mythos, something is wrong. But oh well, you have shown that you're aware this front page thing was a problem. (But it was not the front page alone that was the problem, I stress. It was how offensive you got when it was changed, how you tried to cling to it with fake votes. That was the problem.) But this was not your only problem.

2) I'd may as well include the PyroGothNerd infobox thing here for thoroughness, but honestly don't worry about this one, it was a lot of hubbub over very little.

3) You edited other pages that don't belong to you, too. Remember the EAT page? The one we argued about over Skype? The page that is entirely mine to edit? Remember how I made it very clear I wanted that page left to me? And remember how, during the infobox argument, you went and edited the EAT page again anyway to take out an artist's credit? Even after my telling you to stop, even during an argument about how you need to ask permission?

4) So you were suspended. Alright, fair enough, problem solved. It was only for a week, I had to do something. Oh look at that, you bypassed your suspension to keep insisting on the infobox matter! Wow, that is persistence! If only you could dedicate that persistence to your stories, we'd never be in this mess!

5) Furthermore, while suspended, you logged in as an anonymous user and edited the alphabetical list of blogs so that every blog that hadn't updated since January 2014 was listed as "Finished," and you said you would be the one to switch it back if a story updates, as if that was your domain. And when NoFourthWall changed it back, you reverted it again and argued with him over Skype (which let us know it was you). In fact, let's run through what must have been your logic here: If more blogs are listed as "finished," our mythos looks a lot less abandoned, it looks better on us, right? Well, what about when readers come along and actually try reading the blogs? And they see that a huge portion of them just suddenly drop off? That would look bad on us. Hell, this whole thing was you trying to claim authority over a general-mythos page, a page that concerns everyone's fucking blog. And by this point you weren't even writing your blog. Do you realize how arrogant that looked?

6) Then you purchased the fearmythos.net domain (seriously, you could have just asked me, I would have gladly given you thefearmythos.com, a domain everyone is familiar with and that is over half as cheap, that would have actually been really helpful), spent $200 on features we don't know, designed a front page that no one has seen, and acted like this was your attempt to make amends? Wait, so your problem was that you did something that would concern all of us without asking permission, so your idea of making amends was to do something that would concern all of us without asking permission?

And then you asked me, privately over Skype, if I dislike you, and I did not tell you "No." And that is why you left the Facebook group. '''That is why you left. Owen and Gabe may have contributed, but timing-wise my response to your question was the last thing that happened before you left.'''

Do not ask me questions you don't want the answers to.

Do not try to drag this mythos down with you when you fuck up. I will not fucking allow you.

Do not act like the others have treated you unfairly when you, on more than one occasion, tried stubbornly to take control over other people's things, and they reacted.

And never use the word "trauma" in the context of the mythos ever again, never bring up fucking blackouts, do not bring up anything that I actually experience and they are much worse and much less arbitrarily convenient than you make them out to be. You do not know trauma, you do not know blackouts, you do not know the mythos, you do not know what a toxic environment is.

If you're going to insist on sticking around our mythos, my advice for you at this point would be to do some serious introspection. Look deep inside yourself. Feel the hurt. Feel the guilt. We're all bastards here, we've all fucked up in our own ways, I've done terrible things in my past I'm still trying to redeem myself for, but accepting that is part of becoming mature. You do not become mature by acting like everyone else is the source of your problems, or by trying to gather pity.

Growing up is hard. But y'know what, you're gonna have to start doing it, because right now you are offensive and immature, and you do not know how thin the line you're treading is between "banned" and "not banned." This one isn't even a Rules-based thing, this one's me taking an executive order on a gut instinct that you could potentially do a lot of damage. It might make me a bad admin. Probably does. But I'll try to live with that. The question is:

Will you? 