Thread:PyroGothNerd/@comment-24869402-20140629224612/@comment-24869402-20140723120423

look, when you subsribed to a form of spiritualism that recomended useing a deck of yu-gi-oh cards as a retinue of spirits ,invokeing spock from startreck , and useing video games as meditation tools , you start to believe anything.

but, I snapped out of it when I relized sarah anderson was fucking with people. I did believe, real or not , that fiction could have an effect on peoples lives.

now, I dont.

I was proven wrong, and that was enough to snap me out of it.

frankly, though , if neither porn nor comfortability , nor ability to get off are good indicators of sexuality , then what is? I have a feeling you probably dont want the details of my sex life, as , I assume , that unlike the perves around me , your every action and thought , generaly isnt balanced around sex. when the first nursery ryme you can remember your dad telling you is, "oh , if only I was a washcloth in fera fossets tub , I would be so happy , just think what I would rub". when you can honestly say you watched the movie hevy metal, around the same time you were watching barney , and just as much. and, when you can say that you are the only prude in seemingly a city full of people who constantly talk about ether the last time they got layed , or , how long its been since they got layed , then , you fully understand my situation. frankly, I dont even care about my sexuality. but, apparently , if you wanna relate to people in the suberbs of st. louis , you have to talk about sex a LOT.

I did have an IEP, my mom managed it , it didnt help.

I'm in colledge now, or , rather , I'm takeing a semester off to try and get my life together , its ... not helping.

the teachers are all to buisy to help you after class, and , betwwen the lies about being able to use older textbooks , your friends constantly haveing criseses , whether it be girlfriends dumping them , or getting stabed , and the sheer number of other interuptions , haveing teachers who cant spare time just makes things harder.

as stated, really , after all my years with this stuff , I just want a single page of recognition and to leave , just , some marker to say I can be done , and dont have to worry about keeping up with all the arg's , where I have become a central charecter.